Grow up already

I just decided today that I am really looking forward to having at least one class next semester. I am sick of feeling insanely lazy during the day. Well, on days in which I do not work, I am fairly productive. I usually find things to do. However some days when I am working a night shift, at 3, 4, or 5, I feel like it isn't really worth getting out to do anything before then, and thus I end up reading all day or something. Which I suppose is infinitely better than just watching TV or something, but I still feel somewhat lazy.

I think once school is here and at least 3 days a week I have to be somewhere before noon, I will become a more productive person. Or at least wear the guise of a more productive person.

I really want to start exercising. But I also dread doing so, because I haven't for such a long time. I mean, exercised regularly. Which means starting up again will be hell. But I can tell I am getting chubbier than I have been in a few years, and I don't like it, not one bit. I guess the occasional dance party hasn't been enough to keep up in shape.

I guess the scary thing about finishing up next semester is I have to then figure out exactly what I am going to do. You know, start seeking a job. Or something. I can't just be one of those people who graduates and works at a restaurant for a few more years after said graduation. I'm freaking 26. I have to do something with my life. And I'm really scared because, beyond having a desire to write, I have no clue what more to do, and nothing really interests me in the grown up big boy career field.

Decisions, decisions.